Please do do do not remove the basecodes k.
(c) to feng feng. LOVEZ. :D
Saturday, October 05, 2013, 11:43 PM
Brim. A Google search will return you these results. Brim - Fill or be full to the point of overflowing. That's where I feel in life now. A sinking heavy heart filled with sadness and disappointment. And perhaps, this is the only avenue beside crying, that I know how to let it go. Indeed, I may not be the most experienced boss, or the most eloquent to change black into white, but I dare say that I have given my best and have always tried to understand what the team needs. But time and again, I only get disappointments back when things don't go their ways, and now, I'm just at my brim. There are just some things in life where no matter how you try to change, it will not change. That's the red tapes in companies. Live with it and get over it. There's no point in harping over the matter over and over again. & really, mass resigning is not going to give you what you want either. Just too heartbroken to know that that was even an option to them, after all that I've done and this is the returns I get. Then again, life is never about giving, and expecting returns. I can only say I've been too emotionally attached to this job and this team, and worrying too much that the next one who comes along will diminish or destroy all my efforts. It's time to let go and say goodbye. If I'm not doing a good job about things, it's time. |
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Sunday, June 30, 2013, 2:24 PM
错在我太寂寞。。 |
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Saturday, December 31, 2011, 11:26 PM
Ahhh.. finally, we've reached the end of year 2011. Looking back at my 2011.. I'm glad it's over. 2011 was filled with tears, sweats, sadness, depression/burnout. Seriously, dont remember much good times of 2011. >.< Probably the work overwhelm my whole life. Covered up all the happiness & appreciations that i(perhaps) felt. However, i am grateful that i am alive. Comparing myself to the unfortunate, i am grateful, contented & happie w my life. Where i am today, i am proud of my own capabilities. i am proud that i managed to pull through & held on. i am proud of my own strengths & efforts. i am proud.. that i gave my best in 2011. ^^ LOoking forward to 2012. 2012 WILL be a year of independence. Learning to be self-reliant. Learn to love myself more. Pamper myself more. Ignore what others say & live the life i want. Exercise on a regular basis. Go for at least 1 marathon. Continue to do my best for work. Learn to be tolerant of ignorant souls. May my work be less stressful, less challenging & my staff more cooperative, more loving, more compromising, more appreciative of my sweat and blood efforts. Learn to love my family more. Pamper my family more. Healthy happy life for my family. May love love me more. May my emotions be more stable in 2012. Less rocky. Less pain. Less tears. Less heartbreaks. May my heart be filled with more gratitude, more appreciation, more love, more understandings, more tolerance, less goodbyes for my soul in 2012. May all the above emotions surround me so that i can live a better, happier life in 2012. Am i greedy? Yes i am. Hence, all the wishes for myself in 2012. Goodnights 2011. May 2012 wishes come true.. :) |
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Saturday, September 17, 2011, 7:55 AM
The human heart is a funny thing. It always desire what it cannot have. Fame. Fortune. Looks. The best of everything. Even if it cannot get, it tries its best.. Or die trying. Some commits crimes against their principles just to get fortune. Some go for plastic surgery just to get the same famous look as someone else. Everyone.. In their own way.. Works hard or "works hard" to get what they want. And I'm no different. I work hard to get to where I am today. And even though the struggle was tough to walk or should I say, climb up the ladder, at least I gave my best. But now, im asking myself.. What AM I doing this for..? Life is short. Why am I working so hard for when at times, I don't even feel appreciated? At times, like what friends tell me, "u're being exploited!" and in their hearts, they're saying "Why so stupid?" which I can hear so clearly the silent scream. So.. WHY then am I pushing myself so hard.. Getting exploited at times.. And continuing w this life? *ponders.. Life is short. So what should I do? *ponders some more....... |
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Monday, September 12, 2011, 5:47 PM
I wanna learn to bake, to make delicious desserts and open a desserts stall. Really I do. I wanna open a shop where people can come in to destress, to enjoy the serenity of life.. Slow-paced.. Enjoy good food.. Sweet food to cheer themselves up! I wanna open a place filled w happiness where individuals can drown their sorrows in and for that few mins that they are in the shop, forget about the troubles of life. Forget about their problems temporarily. I wanna baby-sit. Really I do. I wanna take care of many many kids since I can't afford to have a soccer team of my own.. At least I wanna take care of one. I wanna learn to cook healthy food. To read stories to e kids as they dream about the happiness in life. I wanna teach them that the world may be unkind to them in future, but they should never be unkind to the world. I want the kids I take care of to grow up healthy.. Strong.. And happy. I.. Just wanna live a very simple life. Poor.. But happy. Labels: Poor.. But happy. |
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Sunday, September 11, 2011, 12:42 PM
I almost couldn't remember my password for it's been so long since I last blogged about anything. Life's been so busy, there's just not enough time to spend to be blogging about the ups and downs in life. Lately.. What have u been pondering about? My thoughts of late have all been.. What have I been doing in my life? What are my dreams exactly? Have I achieved anything? What do I wanna do w my life? How is it that some people know exactly what they wanna do w their lives.. Went ahead to do it and be so successful while some people, like me, idle my life away. Not knowing a single thing but just, working hard everyday, get the job dome and every fixed day of the month, get paid, give my family allowance and life.. Goes on just like that. Meaningless. Do I feel proud of my life? Do I enjoy what I'm doing? I used to have dreams too when I was young. I used to wanna be a primary school teacher, kindergarten even. My mum said it doesn't earn money, "discourage" me to do it. Then.. I wanted to go into nursing. To help people. And mum said that u need to clean peoples' butt and once again, I gave up without even trying. And now, here I am.. Working as what I am. Am I happy? Labels: Thoughts. |
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Saturday, July 23, 2011, 11:17 PM
I tried not to think about it but.. I really can't help it.. Am I really that not important to you? Labels: Sigh? |
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